Sunday, May 19, 2013

what I want to myself.

I want to make me proud of myself. Rasa yang bukan cuma kayak pas dapat nilai 100
I want to make me adore myself. Bukan cuma karena merasa look good on mirror for a day
I want to make me satisfied of myself. Until falls down the tears
I want to make myself have no any fear except of GOD
I want to make me really admire my parents. No nagging at all, zero
I want to make me admire the teachers. Not only because they love give punishments
I want to make me success. Sukses lahir batin dan bukan karena berhasil do something

I want to make me - my body, my heart, my mind, my everything - as happy as it could be
           Bahagia yang menenangkan. Bahagia yang menyejukkan. Bahagia yang diridhoi-Nya. Bahagia yang membuat orang lain juga merasa bahagia. Bahagia yang membahagiakan.
           Bahagia yang hakiki.

I want to make me realizing my dreams.
           with my own effort
           with my own drop of blood
           with my things, my everything, that belong to Allah SWT

I want to make me accept myself whatever whoever I am.
           Tanpa harus baca quote 'love yourself', 'be yourself' or whatever same things
           Tanpa harus ngelihat - untuk kemudian merasa cantik - bayangan raga di cermin
                                                                                                                    bayangan semu
           Tanpa harus melakukan sesuatu yang unbelievable just to amazed others
           Tanpa apapun
                                      ketika aku bukan siapa-siapa
                                      ketika aku bukan apa-apa - zero, empty
                                                                                                             nothing

I wanted this this. I wanted that. I wanted them - everything I don't have.
          Because I'm human, given all these unsatisfied feeling by God
          But I don't want to say that I'm ordinary
                                                                                   Because no one's ordinary
                                                                                   Because everyone is special
                                                                                                                                    in our own way

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